[Janetaw]

I am young but extremely unhappy in my marriage.
My hub cannot satisfy me
and tbh I really do think I'm very hot.
Slim , c cups , pretty face
My hub is such a lucky bastard who doesn't deserve this at all
I feel so terribly unhappy with him.
Throughout my dating period, I still get indecent proposals from my male friends, asking me to go their house or date them since my bf wasn't paying me attention at all seeing that I'm always alone .
Sex has always been lackluster , perhaps fun only for the first couple of years when we were dating.
My hub is my first . Can u imagine? This beauty here has only fucked 1 man before. I'm so infuriated just thinking about this! he doesn't deserve it at all!
Then I found out ,Even when we got married a couple of years ago, whilst I was rejecting those indecent proposal from my male friends. This bastard hub has been keeping a mistress.
Mind you, boring sex was totally his fault. I would do anything to please him. I have higher sex drive than him, always asking him for more, even bought lots of sexy lingerie myself to please and give him surprises.
Offer him bjs.but he's always tired and lots of excuses like he needs to wake up early tomorrow, tired from work, noisy his parents can hear etc.

I was devastated! even when the sex was lackluster, I still kept my moral standard because I will tell myself 'well... At least he's faithful' because when I had known him, he has always talked about having high standard of integrity.
Besides, he can't even satisfy me already where he find the energy to fuck another girl?
I felt like such an idiot.

I cannot fathom why he would cheat on me when he can't even satisfy me!! For a period of time I thought he might be gay/turned gay or possibly impotent and wanted him to see a doctor .

Anyway I have overcame this , I decided to forgive him by telling myself that it's common to have an affair. Well... I'm getting sick of seeing just his dick too.
Since I have such high moral standards for myself, keeping myself for him . I can now finally overcome this. I will NOT feel guilty if I were to cheat on him and sleep with another man.
So now I want to. He can't satisfy me at all. I want sex all the time, anytime, spontaneous adventurous sex which a boring person like him couldn't satisfy.
I always fantasize about fucking my male friends whom had made indecent proposal to me. Feeling so stupid for turning down a night of fun.

Now... This friend whom I want to have a 'fun' night with no longer make indecent proposal to me. Which is such a party pooper because this is the man whom I have been in love with for the longest time. Possibly because he has a gf now and I know he is a good person.
Now I can finally have fun with him with no other obligations etc he got himself a gf and decides to be a good bf????

I have tried msging him more often but he no longer invites me for any outing. No outing = no opportunity for anything fun to take place right?