[Regretfulman]

[PART 1]
Hi all, today will be my last day here as I have resolved to quit this scene for good. Before I go, I want to share my story to inspire those who may read it. This is me being my most vulnerable and authentic. Nobody on this planet knows that I visit ML/FL, except for a certain priest who I confessed to.

I am a 24 year old undergraduate at a local university. I came from a good middle-class background and attended church regularly. During my A-levels which I took at one of the top jcs here, I even managed to score straight As. On the outside, I look prim and proper. But everything is just a cheap act- I am simply wearing a mask to keep up appearances. There are only 2 people who know the true depravity of my heart - God and I.

I first came into the scene after a short holiday in thailand, where I visited a sex club(which showcased ping-pong shows, etc) and came back to Singapore with a massive case of blue balls. Instead of wanking off and calling it a day, lust took over me and I booked my first ML on SLG. I still remember my first time and the name of the ML(shuang shuang) who serviced me. The euphoria of zhut zhut on a hot syt was addictive beyond measure. But as I soon realised, all cheap pleasures in life come at a cost, far beyond the $120 that I paid.

After my first session, there was no turning back. Having broken the mental barrier of visiting a commercial sex worker, I fell down the rabbit hole of sammyboy and dirty massages. Ironically enough, my nickname encapsulated what I am right now - a man full of regrets. Perhaps I had the foresight to predict where this dark path would lead me, but the thrill of this lifestyle simply hijacked all logical reasoning.

Before I knew it, my visits to ML became a full blown addiction. Initially it was difficult to book due to my new number, so I was forced to settle for landmines, aunties, and mediocre plain janes. I still remember having booked a visit to a ML at the infamous min wah hotel. When i opened the door, the ML looked quite cui and the place was lapsup as fuck. Paid her a $50 rejection fee on the condition that she wrote a good review for me which she accepted. Later on i found out from another ML that I still had no record. Felt like a fool thinking that a whore would honour her word lol.

Over time, I managed to visit almost all the so-called ang pais on SLG. Having spent over $5k over an 8-month period, honestly the only gem that I found was xiao xue. Young pretty syt with a body to die for. The most supple and soft natural D cup boobs which fit her frame perfectly. And for those complaining about her vanillaness, yes she did allow me to zhut her every single time(just to rub it in one last time before I go lol). Perhaps in another life in an alternative universe I could meet a girl like her and make her my girlfriend. Unfortunately we live in the reality of lao aunties on SLG, so too bad I guess lol.Now you're probably wondering- Why did I spend so much money on different girls with average looks? Because it was an addiction to me. The thrill of meeting a new 7/10 ML was far greater than constantly RTF a 10/10 ML.

Eventually this addiction led me to try out bbbj which led to a certain health scare that cost me $600 to test for at a private clinic(thankfully was negative). Honestly looking back, most of the ladies offering bbbj are old and quite cui. Not hot at all. But alas, the high of blowing my load in a ML mouth was more than enough to lower my standards.

The worst part of this addiction is the need to constantly find new thrills. When i first started, I swore to only stick to HJ, but now I was craving to try a FL. One day I was browsing through the domes and the horniness just took over me. Those who are addicted will know the feeling. Feels like you are possessed by something and the only thing that matters is getting your fix of the thrill. This ended up in me visting 4 different FLs on 4 consecutive days. Yup thats right, I went on a sex rampage. How did I sustain the energy? Because I workout and take a supplement called ZMA which helps to replenish sperm quickly lol.

Anyways, everything changed on my 4th visit. She was a hot and exotic syt. I started to french her in missionary position and my rock hard dick was grinding against her. Eventually I got off her and rubbed my dick against her pussy. There was no resistance from her - so I penetrated her raw. Before i got into this scene, I would NEVER even think of rawing a FL. But thats what this addiction does- it makes us do unthinkable things that are out of our character.

Rawing her was honestly the greatest high of my sex journey so far. Soon, i turned her over and banged her in pronebone. It was only 2mins of banging but I was going to shoot my load. For context, it takes me 20mins to shoot during bbbj. That was how much this experience turned me on. Creampie is honestly one of my greatest fetishes, and I was about to finish in her raw. But for some reason, a divine miracle at the eleventh hour happened. For some reason I regained my presence of mind and could think rationally. At the last moment, I pulled out and finished on her back. Soon enough I regained my post nut clarity and was absolutely disgusted with myself. What in the ACTUAL FUCK was I thinking? Wanting to raw creampie a FL and risk pregnancy and stds over 5 mins of fun.

[Continues in part 2]